anngee.


eliudnir.
in Norse mythology, Eliudnir was Hel's hall, located in her domain, the underworld.



past.
October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007

speak.

made muffins.



the lighter ones are the first batch, darker ones are the second batch.
giving the darker ones to my clique tomorrow cos i cant possibly give some light and some dark, right.
but mum said maybe i could like bring 3 dark and 3 light ones and see which ones are more delicious.
if she isnt smart, then i dont know what she is.
maybe i'll listen to her.

parents say darker ones are more successful.
i dont know, what colour are muffins supposed to be?

rah.
i wish to go back to the past.
things were so much better then.

when did i become so emo?

i always bottle up my feelings.
in the end, everything accumulates and i dont even know what i'm crying for.
definitely not because of the seat thing, although that did dampen my mood.
let's hope i wont explode again for the rest of the year.
it always comes in a big cycle.

maybe i really have too high expectations of myself.
maybe i expect too much from myself, and others too.
too much stress aint good yea.

sorry sheryl.
sorry clique.

maybe i'm the only one who can help myself, but i dont know how either.

enough of all the emo shit.

here's me wearing the skinny jeans i bought from topshop.



stupid yellow fan in the picture.

oh yea, might be going to project garage on 9feb.
sounds fun.

6:31 PM

MAT MAT MAT!
<3

i'm super obsessed with mat suddenly.
deathnote rocks lah, bobian.
:D

had a nice chat with merv about my display pic (LxMatsu), singapore's soccer skills, the end of the world, sacrifices and umm..lard.

yes the last three are related by a certain stubby-armpit-haired old hag.

(:

9:16 PM

inspiring.

:')

11:45 AM

i slept for more than 12 hours from yesterday evening till about an hour ago.
haha, good.
i've slept all my troubles away.

anyway, why is the world filled with insensitive jerks?
D:<

ate ice cream yesterday with sheryl.
always when we go eat ice cream, we're supposed to talk about sad stuff but end up talking about happy stuff!
and i saw the deathnote 13 how to read at comics connection.
yay for L Lawliet!
: D
i love sheryl!

okay off to do the cuda board thingy.

8:17 AM

i am not someone you come to only when you need help.

and ignore any other time.

5:03 PM

i tried making a sugar cookie but it turned out like a cake.
so now it's a sugar cake.



yes i dont have a more appealing plate.
well it tastes good and that's all i care about.
(:

baking seems to have become some sort of therapy for me, haha.
i'm like addicted to baking stuff even though they always turn out wrong cos i never ever measure the ingredients properly.
i still got a box of blueberry muffin mix.
yum, blueberries.
and mixes never go wrong.

anyway, i've been thinking about weddings cos i went to one yesterday.
at grand hyatt omg please!
the theme was like all black and stuff, which is really nice, but still a little traditional cos of the sit down dinner sort of thing.





i'm gonna have a masquerade partaye!
and we'll dress gothic, heh.
okay maybe too early to plan a wedding, lol.

anyway, i am getting like super fat cos of eating alot for 3 consecutive days!
bbq on friday, wedding dinner on saturday and went to eat with aunt today.
at least cactushead gave me florida's natural which is low fat.
i ate 6 out of 8 packets in 1 day, omgggggggggg!

i'm becoming oversensitive again.
sheryl i need ice creammmmmmm!

come to decide that the things that i tried were in my life just to get high on
when i sit alone, come get a little known
but i need more than myself this time
step from the road to the sea to the sky, and i do believe that we rely on
when i lay it on, come get to play it on
all my life to sacrifice

10:42 PM

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF LIFE BECAUSE I DONT BELONG AT ALL.

EVERYONE IS JUST ACTING, AND I'M PLAY ACTING ALONG.

ALL I WANTED WAS FOR EVERYTHING TO FALL IN PLACE.

2:26 PM

maybe.
:|

11:08 PM

melloXmatt is teh hawt.



matsuXL is damn hawttt too but got obscene content so cant post, haha.

roarrrrr yaoi. <3

today i finished clearing my shelf.
(:

okay random.
i've nothing to blog about.

go ahead, shoot me.

10:46 PM

there are things even the smartest person on earth will not know.
just because they are good in a certain aspect, it doesnt mean that they can understand everything just by listening once.

emo last night.
):

glad that the amaths test is over and done with.
i almost went crazy last night cos i fell asleep and didnt have time to practice some maths.
and had to correct the poster for modular sports too.

well i think i need to sleep early today.

5:41 PM

I MADE COOKIES YESTERDAY!
: D

too bad i forgot to take pictures, haha.

i made 6 big cookies for clique and sheryl.
then 10 small ones for cactushead.
ate the remaining myself.

when i went to pass cactushead the cookies he only had 5 left, haha!
cos we ate 5 ourselves.
: D

baking is fun fun fun!
<3

jappy cheer up!
: O

5:25 PM

ning'r and sheryl both tagged me to do the 5 things thingy.

okay so here i am.

you make a list of 5 things not many people know about you.
then you tag 5 other people to do the same!

1. i'm particular about my hands. i dont like my hands to be oily or dirty, and when i feel so, i'll wash them. sometimes even for no reason at all, i'll just go wash my hands. and when i'm super lazy, i'll even eat stuff by holding them with a piece of tissue so my hands wont be oily. (ask anyone who knows me, ha.)

2. i hate mainstream music. i dont like pop songs and all that sort of shit. i love rock/heavy metal. but i dont like people who blast their music. i certainly dont. it's already loud so i see no point in blasting anyway, as long as i can hear and appreciate it. plus i dont want to be deaf in 10 years' time.

3. i love body mod. piercings and tattoos. but not to the extreme, just a few. i believe it's a way of expressing who you are. when i get my braces off, i'm going to get snakebites. and i want tattoos. it's not just to beautify yourself. every tattoo i get will have a meaning behind it.

4. i love EGL (elegant gothic lolita) style, but i just dont have the money to buy the clothes, haha. i can make them but i'm too lazy. so for now, i'll just admire pictures. if i have the money i will get all those clothes. and yes, i dare to wear it out to town, or anywhere actually.

5. one of my fantasies: to turn a gay guy straight. it's a challenge okay? but i no charm lah so cannot say anything for now. gays are hawt. that's why i love yaoi too. hot boy-on-boy actionnn! i mean passion, hehe.

okay now to tag 5 people.
i feel like i'm implicating them when i tag them, haha.
1. jas
2. van
3. shir
4. mervin
5. anyone else!

okay done.
(:

and i finished the poster i was supposed to do for modular sports!
yay i love it much.
:D

dont worry you guys will get to see it sooooooooon!

10:31 PM

i just realised how HAWT mello is after looking through tons of deathnote yaoi.

but L is still #1.
(:

haha my yaoi madness is BACKKKKKKKKKKK.
with a vengeance!
: D

*rants on and on

6:35 PM

I FINISHED READING DEATHNOTE!
:D

haha light died in the end.
but the middle part of the story was screwed cos it's too confusing, what with the mello and near stuff.
L SHOULDNT HAVE DIED SO EARLY IN THE STORY CAN.
D:<

i have tuition at 8 and i still havent started on maths homework and studying for the chinese test tomorrow.
i havent even bathed, haha.
i need to bake something, anything.
someone please help me unpack the ovennnnnnn!

okay going off soon.
just finished helping jacq print her essay.
(:

5:18 PM

yes i havent been blogging for a long time.

been getting a little emo recently, i guess i have too much stress as well.
stupid o levels.
yeah i know it's sort of early to be worrying about it.
but i'm just pressuring myself to do well.
i dont even know what i want to do when i grow up.
so that's my analysis: do well, then you can do anything you like.

well whatever.
let's just live life one day at a time for now.
(i'll try anyway.)

i miss tiffany so much.
no more chinese tuition meaning no more slacking in potato's class.
no more going out after tuition to shop.
been thinking of how long we knew each other already.
(:

thanks for the oven too tifa!
i love you sooooo much! <3
but i havent finished the watermelon bag cos i cant figure out how to do the zip.
it's okay, i shall put in more effort because i owe you tooooo much for the oven!

oh no i need ice cream.
but i've been getting fat.
):

today's cca meeting was okay i guess.
designing the poster is my job again.
i've been a little out of touch with photoshop.
poor thing, i've neglected it for so long.
hahaha.

something random.
i saw this on the back of a bus seat.



haha twit.
and you got your bases all wrong.

well i've finally updated to the google blogger.
cos i couldnt click on 'edit html' in the old one.
annoying shit.

10:34 PM

haha, i tried making the candy wrapper bracelet with paper.
turned out too thick.



my life is boring.

7:30 PM

emo again.

ah well no one even bothers.

9:14 PM

i dont know why i seem okay in school.
but at home..
):

i guess i have lots of troubles nowadays, especially since school has started again.

i dont know how to tell people what i'm dissatisfied with cos i know they will badmouth me behind my back anyway.
sometimes i really wish that i wont give a damn, but i do.
i'm a people-pleaser, actually.
i dont like people to be pissed at me and stuff.
but i know many people are.
plus, i'm antisocial.
cant maintain conversations.
well..i hope everything can be well soon.
it's annoying my guts out.

(maybe i just cant fit in.)

6:39 PM

if i'm unwelcome, why dont you just tell me so and i'll scram, instead of trying to drop subtle (okay, maybe not since i noticed it) hints to ask me to get lost?

maybe i'm a tad sensitive, but i dont like to feel this way.

5:28 PM

Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutante
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...

7:49 PM

well i've done half of the starburst shoes!
(that means 1 shoe of the pair)
rejoice!
(:

i've gained 5kg, which is suparrrrrr bad.
):

but i've decided not to diet or do anything with extreme measures.
cos that time, i started getting headaches and felt dizzy all the time.
well i shall try to control my diet!

the 2 pints of ben&jerry's in my fridge are NOT helping me in any way.

10:21 PM

happy new year everybody!

actually 2006 hasnt been a really good year for me.
lots of stuff i havent done and it's a new year already.
many problems as well, though most are caused by my self-esteem actually.
i really hope that 2007 will be good for me and everything will work out well.
especially since it's O'levels year.
i dont want my own thoughts to fuck my mind up.
:|

what sheryl told me that day is probably the most sensible thing i've heard.
all that stuff about happiness.
at least she's there for me when i need someone.
thank you! <3

ohhhh, tiffany made cookies and saved some for me!
yay i love her too.
<3

12:00 AM