Saturday, October 28, 2006
i dont like to feel left out. ):
maybe it's just that i'm a people-pleaser.
i dont like people to detest me.
):
i think i'm getting depressed again.
D:
sometimes i dont know what i want.
i care about my looks, my friends, my school results.
where do these get me?
it's all so shallow.
it doesnt help me to achieve anything at all.
i dont really have an ambition or goal.
all i want to do is art and music.
but i'm not talented at either of them.
why do things always turn out like this?
sometimes i just find no meaning in life.
it always contradicts itself.
from the day we're born, we're waiting for death to arrive.
isn't it a waste of time?
like a fatal disease with a 100% death rate.
and the worst thing is, it's an epidemic.
sometimes i will dream of going somewhere, a place where loneliness and sadness doesnt exist.
i think that's the place where the land and the sky meet, somewhere in the horizon.
but nobody can reach that place.
nobody can reach the end of the horizon.
simply because it doesnt exist.
it's an illusion.
but someday, i will want to go to that place.
(:
shoot the butterflies. -shot in the head.
11:09 PM
